I have been unemployed for 1 whole day - when am I supposed to freak out? When am I supposed to worry about the bills, they are all paid for this time frame...I am hopeful I got the job I interviewed for today but am anxious because they have not called me back yet. I mean I interviewed this morning! Is that unreasonable?
I did get some great news, my friend in France had a new baby. I haven't spoken to her in so long because of all the chaos with the wedding, etc. Her new little boy was born on the last day of the year. I am so happy for her, it is making me more excited about possibly getting pregnant. I have at least 1 more month before I can be off my meds and then we begin trying. I think I am ready. Just when I think that though something happens I get spooked again. I wish I was the rock that Chuck is. He is so confident when it comes to being a father. I just know what happened to me when I was growing up and would like to avoid doing that to some small person if at all possible. I think my new family will help me to stay on track though. I know if I act like my mother at all Chuck is likely to smack me. And for good reason.
Well head up for today, I don't want to be discouraged about anything. Going to think positive and do some laundry.
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